Wednesday, August 30, 2006

If you don't think this is funny, you probably haven't read "A Modest Proposal."

Saturday, August 26, 2006

I'm rather ambivalent about this new job. Sure, it feels great to have some income after being unemployed for several months, but I'm afraid the rest of my life is suffering because of it.

I haven't written anything creative since August 3rd. More than three weeks have passed and my story sits untouched. Instead, I spend my days trying to sell people TVs and other home theater equipment. It's a little depressing, actually.

Furthermore, I'm driving about 80 miles round-trip to get to said job, making the rest of my day pretty non-existent. By the time I get home, I just want to relax and veg out.

There were so many opportunities for me to work here in Maryville doing something I actually enjoyed, but they just didn't work out. My high school journalism teacher just recently arrived in Kuwait to teach English. Her life right now seems so exotic and new. Mine is all about explaining the difference between plasma, lcd and projection screens.

I guess I'm feeling a little more discouraged than normal today because my department is having a mandatory meeting at 7 a.m. tomorrow. That means I have to get up at 5:30 to get ready and drive down to St. Joseph. I had the day off (except for playing at church), but now I get to wake up early and waste time in a meeting. After the cost of gas, the whole thing will have me earning about $4.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

So I switched to blogspot and then failed to consistently update. Good going, eh? So what's been going on in my life since August 3rd? Quite a bit, actually.

Probably the most exciting news is that I got a job. I'm working at Best Buy in the Home Essentials department. I'm a candidate for management, so they're keeping a close eye on me during my training and first few months here. With any luck, I'll wind up being the customer experience coordinator soon. Turns out my job as yearbook editor gave me a good leg up on the competition because I already have experience supervising employees.

Today was orientation for work and I'm working the rest of the week. It's a little inconvenient to have to drive to St. Joseph everyday for work, but it's better than being unemployed, no?

What else...I've been playing the Suikoden series for the past few weeks. I was feeling a bit nostalgic for the games, so I started with Suikoden I and I'm now on the third game. It's interesting to see how much the series has changed since 1996.

My brother is getting married in November, so I'm going back to Michigan for a weekend to be his best man. He and his fiancée were down in KC for a wedding this past weekend, so they spent Saturday night and Sunday here in Maryville. I hadn't really had a chance to meet Aimee, so I really enjoyed spending time with them. She's a nice girl, and I think they're good together.

I'm afraid I haven't done much writing in the past few weeks. I'm feeling rather uncreative right now. Plus, I was retyping my story (a good way for me to get more ideas) when I came across a statement my main character made that made me angry. He was trying to be profound, but it sucked. I got mad at him and haven't really touched it since. Hopefully he'll learn to avoid making such comments in the future. Actually, I just need to restructure a conversation to remove the necessity for him to be profound, but I'm not feeling up to it right now.

I'll get back on the creative horse soon. Until then, Phoebe (our kitten) will take care of creative expression in this household.

Thursday, August 03, 2006

I've been in a writing funk this past week or so. And by writing funk, I mean I haven't written anything. Nada. Zilch. Zippo. I find this very disheartening. I don't know exactly why it happened, and I can't figure out how to get back into my story.

I still feel very strongly about it, and I can't draw myself away, but for some reason I'm frozen. I don't know if it's my pesky self-editor rearing his ugly head and I just don't recognize him or if it's something else. Either way, I'm finding myself in an interesting predicament.

I looked at graduate schools again today, and I'm really glad I bought An Insider's Guide to Creative Writing Programs by Amy Holman. I found a couple more schools that have pretty good programs and offer some unique advantages. Plus, it helps to have a lot of options out there. You see, most programs only accept 10-12 writers every year. So out of the hundreds of people applying, you really have to stick out. Hopefully, I will. However, my top choice (U of Iowa) is also one of the most prestigious writing programs in the nation.

Speaking of sticking out, it will be difficult to stick out if I can't assemble my portfolio. You see, most schools want 2-3 short stories or a section of a novel. I have one short story that hasn't evolved (or is evolving) into a novel, and I have one part of a novel, but not enough to make a good portfolio. I guess I should stop complaining and start writing.

You know, I'm feeling just the slightest bit creative, so maybe I should take advantage of this. Thanks for letting me work it out here.