Monday, October 06, 2008

I enjoy Chopin. I heard a song tonight that was a study on one of Chopin's Etudes, essentially a study on a study. Apparently the composer didn't find Chopin's original work challenging enough, so he made them more complicated. Adrienne Rich has a poem entitled "Transcendental Etude," which we studied in my Silence in Modern Literature course. Although the decreationist tone in the poem is critical of adept, practiced performers, there's still an appreciation of the significance of musical thought hidden in the text. Or maybe I just want there to be an appreciation. Whatever the case, that poem always makes me want to play Chopin.

Saturday, October 04, 2008

I have this list of things I would like to do, but I seem to lack the time and/or motivation to actually carry out these plans. I guess I just need a little motivation to actually achieve these not-so-lofty-but-ever-so-elusive goals. I should embrace my OCD tendencies and organize my life. When I was 11, I would write out a daily schedule with events listed in 15-minute increments. Sometimes I miss that anal-retentive version of myself, but I know he's just sleeping, awaiting the return of that strange behavior. What activities were so pressing to young me that I felt the need to allot time for them? I guess I just need to regain a little bit of that crazy.